With the small sphere of glass we get to stare back into the past.
But it is only the future that is within our control.
With the lack of continuity in my blog.
And the dwindling crumbs I leave whenever I am on.
It is a bit hard to tell you guys what has been happening to me in the past few weeks.
My team has dwindled from 20+ to 4.
My work load has gone from overbearing to a tinkling of dripping water.
My focus has lost all its shine.
And I blamed myself for all of it.
It’s a very hard truth to swallow.
Even the part where everyone will agree is NOT my fault that shit happens.
But deep down, I have this magic eight ball that tells me that it is.
Not directly.
But indirectly it is always our faults that things don't go smoothly.
It’s not a guilt trip.
Nor is it a way of minimizing the pain that crosses through our veins.
It is merely an observation.
We are all in this situation because we all contributed to it.
To say that we are not to blame is like saying that global warming was ONLY caused by foresters who cut down trees.
It is not true and we all know that.
But how many of us are willing to step up and say it?
Admit that we are part of the problem and not the solution.
So yeah.
I blame myself for global warming too.
Thus leaves the ultimate question.
What do I do?
Do I slit silently into the black again?
Ignoring the signs and symbols that show us that catastrophe is coming?
Closing our eyes and pray that some other ultimate being is going to save us all.
Like winning a jackpot so that all our debts can be cleared.
Instead of looking for a probable solution like seeking employment to pay off our debts, we pray for miracles.
What kind of logic is that?
Why do we ask for forgiveness for our sins?
When we ourselves know that it is unforgivable.
Instead of focusing all that is wrong and all that has been done wrong.
Let’s put our eyes to the things that we can do.
The things that we can do right.
Whatever stakes we have shoved into our souls, that is no longer of consequence to the present.
That is between the day of judgment and our own list of sins.
Whatever we do between that day and now is our choice.
It has always been our choice.
And it’s about time we start doing what is right.
Know that it is NOT redemption for our past mistakes.
Know that we are not asking for favors.
We do so because it is the right thing to do.
And we will always pay for all the wrongs we have created with our name.
Justice will always prevail.
