i did it ...

I got to it faster than I thought.
Here is the surprise that I wanted to give you guys.

The site is still in construction but I will most probably be keeping the color theme.
Am still sourcing for a better template site to showcase my idea properly.

Send me comments of what you think.
Thank you all.

Being sick is no fun ...

I fell sick on the 24/MAR/2010.
I kept being sick up until the 27/MAR/2010.

Bed ridden.
Utterly disgusted by the fact that I have lots of things to do.
And worst is that I was staring into limbo while thinking about how to finish them all on time.

If people did not know better, they would assume that I am trying to run away from my responsibilities.

And from all obvious evidence, they are correct.
No denying it.

Will post all that I promised up to the site by tomorrow.
Its no longer a matter of "Oops I better get it right".
Its a matter of integrity by a human being.
I said it.
I will deliver it.

Its a simple rule.

The minor detail that I did not choose to be sick is not relevant.
All that matters is that I do what I said I will do.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Just a little longer ...

Hi Guys,

Its like this.
I am currently tied down with some projects and could not put time into posting.
I know I said I had something to post up soon about a personal project of mine.
But time just was not on my side so I am sorry to say that I need to postpone it a little longer.

So here I am posting this using my email instead of login in to Blogger.
Hope that I can finish everything by this week so that things can go back to being normal again.

Thanks for your patience.

From
izchan

Just a little sneak preview ...

Well not really a preview more like a notice of sort.

I will be posting my up and coming idea for the rest of you to see.
Some of the designs you might have already seen in my old postings.
Some are actually new.

Should be sometime this week.

Stay tuned.

Banzai ...

Moving up the totem poll, I see things that I never really understood.
Things which I know exist but never truly accepted as a fact of life.
But what I accept and what is real is two distinct entities.

Which is why I gave up my post and walked into a smaller company with a lesser pay.

There are times which it seems like it was a mistake.
After fighting for so long to get to that mark, I up and walked away from it.
But its only for an instance and I will smile and let it be blown away with the winds.

There are more important things in life other than making more money.
There is the part where we have enough of a life to use the money we make.

So I gave it up to live a little.

I gave it up so that I can be with my wife more.

But of course, no matter how much I try to move away from being the one.
I still end up being the one.
My friend says that's my niche in life.
Being the one.
Its how the universe is structured.
It needs people like me to be in places where it can exert its control.

So after running away from my niche for 5 long years, I end up being there again.
Its my own doing really.
I have no one to blame other than my stupid integrity factor.
Will I run again?
I don't think so.
Not this time.
This time its different.
I am different.
Maybe I might be able to last longer than I did the last.

So I will do this.
And I will do it with a firm notion of what my life's principles are.
Its not a negotiation.
It will either be my way or no way at all.

Lets see who is the bigger kahuna this time round.

Its not winter anymore ...

There are plenty of methods to blog.
Some blog daily with fresh ideas.
Some blog occasionally when something actually happens.
Some make it a project where they dedicate a time and effort to make things work.

Me?

I am all of the above.
Well, I am least of the last kind.
At least for the last 2 years, I have not been putting any effort into making things work differently.
Its evident in the case that I took forever to change my site layout.
I could say that nothing stood out to me that made me want to change.
But the most appropriate answer, which happens to be the truth, is that I am still slightly lost in what I truly want to achieve here.

I used to say that it was a place where I can share my thoughts and dreams.
I still do that but less so now because I have thinking a lot less and dreaming a lot lesser.

Then there is the part of me that says that I like writing stuff.
I of course still do but like the above, I am writing less and imagining less as well.

My project ideas are stacking up in a corner because I could not get myself to start on it.

I can blame work.
But its really just an excuse.
Like all valid reasons for anyone to NOT do anything, there are all merely excuses.
And I am rather sick of them.

So I am starting to push back.
Slowly. Surely. Steadily.
I know I can do it because I have done it before.
And I want to do it again.
I want to make it work again.

I am not getting younger.
And time is no longer such a luxury as it used to be.
I will put up as much as I can on what I am doing here so that I can remind myself that I need to keep at it.

Like all things in life.
It won't happen unless we do it.

Its a new year after all ...

Yes I know it took some time.
And yes I know its not too much of a difference from the one before.
But still ...
It is a change.

A good change I hope.

Lets see if I can keep this new look as long as I did the previous one.

Working at home ...

This is the second time this month that I am working on office work remotely.
The statement might sound trivial to some of you but in my case its a little bit of a break through.

Until recently this kind of work requires me to be physically sitting in the office working on my own terminal in order to be able to support my comrades in arms.

I have in numerous occasion requested that the company provide us with a means to work from home and that we could perform much better if we can do our late night duties at the comfort of our home instead of the office.

There are some who will argue against bringing office work back to the sanctity of our nest. Stating that office stress that is brought home will ruin some, if not all, the good chi in the house of comfort and love.

As for me? I have a more practical approach to this argument.

Would it be better if you were totally physically remove from our nest instead of merely temporary secluded into your study room just so you can emerge from your cave 2 hours later instead of being gone for 3-4 hours which will include traveling time.

It is also much more practical for the staff who are handling mission critical roles without having to rush to the office in order to perform their duty. Instead a shorter response time can be provided by allowing them access to their tools at home using the current broadband infrastructure available.

With so many broadband providers available to us today (TMNet, Maxis, Celcom, Digi, izzi, AMAX and P1) it should be possible for one such as me to find a broadband provider that can give me a good enough service for home as well as office usage.

So why didn't I get to work from home before?
Simply because my System Administrator decided that it was more secure and convenient to the company if we were all confined with the office network. He did go out and source for VPN hardwares and software compatibles. But at the end, he kept pushing the delivery for it.

That lasted until last month, where he was officially let go due to our changing business approach. There was simply no need to keep an office in Australia anymore and we could replace him with a local Admin to handle our daily requirements.

Of course there would be a time of pain due to the fact that he never really gave a proper handover to the local Admin. But regardless of that, we are relieved that he left. No matter how much of inconvenience that might rise up during this change period, eventually it will pass and normalcy will return.

But with one difference.

The obstacle that stood in the way of improvement has been removed for good.
Within the last few days, a better approach have been given a green light to be tested and thus is why I can now comfortable work at home without bearing the burden of driving home from work late in the mid of night.

I can't guarantee that these change will be successful or not.
But I do know that if we do not improve our current way of doing things, the end result would be very much worst then it is now.

With determination and some luck, I am sure the current lean group of people that is still within the company can make this a better place to work in and to work with.

For all humanity ...

Its a good sign for humanity when Intelligence is considered HOT.

That's one of the caption under Maxims June 2009 Olivia Wilde photo shoot.

Just in case you don't know who she is, she is currently playing "Thirteen" in HOUSE.

No, I will not put her photo here because there are plenty of people on the net that already has.
Plus, it would only make it harder for people to actually read what I am saying.

Personally I am rather fond of this character in House.
She is flawed like House.
Sexy like Cameron.
Intelligent like Cuddy.
But most of all she is just simply HOT.

Some people might think that its a sexist thing to say but let me tell you something buddy, being told that they make sane man crazy is as much a compliment as saying them solving the origin of the universe.

I understand the reason and the motivation for feminist to insist that we treat them as equals and not as a sex symbol.
I agree with it totally.
But that does not mean that I will deny the beastly urges that they inflame when they walk into room like the flaming goddess of Venus.

Can't woman be both appreciated as being intelligent and sexy at the same time?

Seriously.

I know its not easy to think when all the blood circulation is diverted down south.
Been there, done that.
Its a bloody inbuilt antilogarithm in ALL human beings.
Yes, woman folks have the same problem when a hunk walks into the room as well.
I know because ALL my female partners tell me so when they see a Brad Pitt look alike parading through the shopping mall.

Does it mean that Brad Pitt is less a human being and more a sex bomb?
I am sorry but the answer is no.
He is still a human being like you and me.
He merely gets appreciated in more ways than just his personality and willy smile.
And I don't here him complaining as much as the female gender.

Maybe because the females have always been the repressed gender type.
Labeled as the weaker sex.
The house wife.
The function ornament.
The mother of children.
And other areas where people associate with lesser status.
If you believe it to be so then you are not just shallow but dumb as well.

The female gender has something that is inborn to them and them alone.
And that is the ability to find the weakness of any man and exploit it to their advantage.
I have not seen any woman who is not able to do that.
None.
It is their choice to actually utilize that special ability on us or not.
We men are at their mercy, we just don't acknowledge it.
Some man have that trait but only a small amount of it, they tend to be politicians or company CEO's.

So then why are the woman folk consider weaker?
That's because men think that strength comes from muscles.
The reality is that strength comes from the intelligence that uses the muscle that they have inherited.
And the woman folk uses those muscles to the fullest possible manner.
Why do you think men are always the ones in the front lines of war?
Why are the men the first to die?
Because we are the muscles that is being flexed to do the bidding of the mind.
And the muscles willingly do it without complaint as it is designed to do so.

So love your females and give them your total love.
Because at the end, they are the one who will decide if you are worthy of their affection and time.

Yes, people, I worship my wife and the air that she displaced.
Bite me.