Am Back ...

The kind of vacation that everyone should have is the kind that actually allows a person to remember what it was like before we walked into the life of the working class.

And I can safely say that I only started to learn how to relax AFTER I married my wife.

Yes, you will hear people complaining about how married life have taken a toll on their personal time.
How the wife component have made their "freedom" evaporate like yesterday's vapour.
And lets not forget the "Bachelor" and "Master" degree jokes.

Did I suffer the same kind of set back?
Of course I did.
But not as a complaint.
Only as a part of moving into a different area of life.

I have less time for personal activities because I need to spend more time taking care of home.
Taking care of home means, helping out with the cleaning, washing and planning.
It was hectic at first because its a huge change from normalcy.

After 3 years since my marriage, I have started to get the hang of things.
I am a slow learner when it comes to breaking into habits.
And it is my wife that taught me how to let go and have fun during vacation time.

I will try to post my traveling blogs up this time.
As I have never finished my travel blogs ever, I will aspire to do so this time round.

The 10 day trip to Taiwan was interesting and fun.
My love had a tonne of fun.

Sun, Sand and Salt ...

I will be on holiday from the 19/APR/2010 - 30/APR/2010.
Tanning off the coast of a remote country.
Hopefully they will be people running around in Bikini's.

See you all on the flip side.

The Truth About Masturbation ...

For those out there who are curious but too shy to ask.

Medically speaking, masturbation is a normal, healthy way to give yourself sexual release and pleasure. At least 80 percent of boys and men masturbate, usually until they ejaculate. About 60 percent of girls and women report that they masturbate. As you know, there are many myths and untruths floating around about what happens when you masturbate. This can make things very confusing, especially if you don’t feel comfortable talking to a parent or adult about his subject. To help you tell the difference between fact and fiction and to help answer any questions you have about masturbation, we’ve created a list of frequently asked questions.

Frequently Asked Questions

I heard that if you masturbate too much, you'll use up all the sperm. Is this true?
No it isn't true, but people have said all kinds of outrageous things about masturbating for as long as anyone can remember. The testicles make more sperm than you will ever need and you will not run out by masturbating. People of all ages masturbate because it feels good and gives them pleasure, but it's usually something that they don't talk about very much.

If you masturbate, does that mean you’re gay?
No, it has nothing at all to do with being gay.

Does masturbation cause physical damage? My religion says masturbation is bad.
Although some religions teach that masturbation is morally wrong, it will not cause any physical problems (such as insanity, hairy palms or sterility.)

Can a doctor tell from a physical examination if a girl has masturbated (having never been involved in any other type of sexual activity)?
There is generally no way to tell whether someone has masturbated or not. Neither fingers nor a vibrator leave marks on the body, unless the rubbing has been strong enough to injure the clitoris or the tissue surrounding it. You would know that, because the area would be tender. In that event, the tissue may be a bit red for a day or so, and a doctor might notice that if you had an exam during those couple of days.

Some girls and women enjoy using something shaped like a penis when they are masturbating. They may use it to rub their clitoris, or they might put it, or their fingers, into the vagina. If you have never had sexual intercourse, the thin tissue at the opening of the vagina (called the hymen) might be torn if you forced anything through it. Again, the tissue would be injured, there would be a little bleeding, and it would take several days for the wound to heal. So a doctor might notice this too if you are examined at that time. But it’s not common for a girl to injure herself this way, because it hurts enough that she stops before pushing further. Even if an object had torn the hymen, most doctors wouldn’t notice much after it had healed. After all, using tampons can also tear the hymen and/or enlarge its opening.

Can you get an infection from masturbating?
No, you can’t get an infection from masturbation, unless it’s so vigorous that you irritate the skin on your penis (if you are a male.). Just like a scrape on your arm or leg, an abrasion on your penis could lead to a skin infection, but this is unlikely. It’s also possible to get an infection if you insert anything into the urethra (the opening at the tip of the penis). The same cautions apply to females – masturbation should not be done in any way that irritates the delicate genital tissues. Hands and any objects used should be clean and smooth. The choice to masturbate or not is private and personal, and is harmless either way.

I’m 15 and can't go two days without masturbating. Is there someway to stop the urge of masturbating?
Sexual feelings can be very strong at your age, and the urge to masturbate is perfectly normal. Every other day is not unusual. Masturbation is harmless, but if you wish to stop, vigorous physical exercise may provide an outlet for some of your sexual energy.

Whenever I masturbate, nothing comes out but a clear liquid. Is this normal?
If you’re still in the early stages of your pubertal development, the answer to your question would be yes, this is normal. Your fluid (ejaculate) will become thicker or cloudier as your development progresses, indicating that you are now capable of producing sperm. If you have been fully sexually mature for a long period of time, the fact that the fluid is clear may warrant an evaluation by your doctor.

The skin around my testicles is getting darker. Does this have anything to do with masturbation?
No it doesn't. The skin covering the testicles (balls) is called the scrotum and gets darker as your body makes more testosterone (male sex hormone). The same thing happens to the penis. This is just a sign that your body is moving through puberty like it should.

These information are provided by TeenGrowth.com.

Listen to me write ...

Its been a while since I do what I usually do in this blog.
What's that?
Well, basically blog.
I mean really, no hold back, all out blog.
To talk about things happening around me and what I feel about it.

It's strange but the truth is nothing much has been happening.
It's as if some cosmic entity decided it did not want me having anything interesting for a while.
So all became quiet.
Even the amount of beautiful people has dropped.
They all went under a rug somewhere and I can't seem to find them.

Now does that mean that I don't get beauty anymore?
I don't think so.
I have been experiencing a sudden change of paradigm in my view of what makes up a beautiful picture.

Just like a few days back, I realized that the car park outside my window looked extremely interesting.
The sky was bright blue.
The wind was light and the traffic on the highway was buzzing with life.
It was near picture perfect.
And I could not help but smile at it.
I could even smell the stench coming out from the river not far away and it did not discuss me even a little.
How strange that is.

You see, age came to visit me and made me a deal.
The deal was simple.
Live your life or it will take it all back.
Its not much a threat then a reminder that what I have is on loan.
I never really think about life because I never bothered to look back at it.
I do what I do because I believe it to be what it should be.
So now, AGE told me to not ignore it anymore because life feels like its been ignored.
Or to be exact, that I had not learned to appreciate it as much as I should.

So now, I learning to live again.
To start seeing the little things that I never noticed before.
For instance, the sweet smells coming from the bakery down the street.
Or if reindeer's really know how to fly.
So many more that I don't pay attention to because I was too busy.
Change will come.
Slowly.
But surely.

So live your life.
And I will start living mine.

Its more than just YouTube ...

I am sure there are plenty of people out there who are basically hooked onto YouTube.
I mean there is even a song on YouTube.

And I am sure I am as much an addict to it as anyone else.
I used to be on it to watch Anime.
My Bleach, Naruto, One Piece are all basically YouTube sponsored.

So now I have a new Hook on my pants.
Its music.
Yes people its nothing new.
But I am saying that I AM NOW hooked on this cover song singers.
People like singingdork888, Esnathesinger, LuieLand and MarieDigby are dominating my ears.

These people are talented.
I first started with MarieDigby.
Now I am utterly hooked with all these others singers that does this with such simplicity that it boggles my mind.

And they don't do just covers.
There are original musics in there as well.

Some of you might already know that MarieDigby has been gobbled up by a label and even had a little sing along in Malaysia last year.
I did not get to go and see her as I never told my wife about this addiction of mine.

For those of you who thinks that I am loosing (whats left of) my mind.
You will be right to be concerned.
Because I am thinking of quitting my job and go be a YouTube singer.
That is if I could hold my singing together for longer than two seconds without breaking into that crackling sound that resembles bad chalk over blackboards.

How I wish my that can be true.
No, singing is not my passion.
Music is.
The creation process has and will always be what makes me feel alive.

So listen up.

If you ain't making new things.
If you ain't singing out loud.
You ain't living at all.
Your just burning oxygen.
Wasting into the dust of time.