Master-Chief ...

Bought myself a Master-Chief toy figure.



To those who know nothing about Halo.
It is basically the only good that Microsoft has ever help created.
SPARTANS does not surrender.
SPARTANS fight to the last man.
And one man stands in front of them all.
He is Master-Chief.
The epitome of strength and vision.



SPARTANS RULEZ!!!!

Yes, people.
I am a geek.

I'm Lovin it ...

Have been picking up my habit of doing McD breakfast again.
Not really going there for food, as I don't really need breakfast.
Instead I am spending half an hour in the morning there, sitting and thinking.

McD seems to have that kind of environment that I can relax in.
It’s bright and easygoing to the soul.
The catch phrase "I'm Lovin It" punctuates my particular case accurately.



Drinking stale coffee and scribbling into my notebook (The Pen and Paper model), allows me to put things into perspective.

I can be very dramatic when I am scribbling.
You can see me pushing my pen firmly onto the paper, as if it makes it more relevant.
Or seeing me tearing pages and pages of scribbles out from the notebook and crunching them together to make them IRRELEVENT.
As I said, visually its very the drama queen.

Say what you like, but I enjoy doing it that way.
It makes it feel more real.
Is that even proper English?
More real...

Are things any less real in any other time and space?

Many a things I put into paper.
And many more I destroy by ripping it away.
It’s not just the action but also the interpretation of it when I rip it out that gives my mind a conclusive decision.
It’s ripped out and so it’s no longer there.

My sister once said that I visualize my thoughts more than I articulate them.
If I can see it in my mind, then I can do it.
Isn't that true for everyone else?
Don't you need to understand a problem in order to solve it?

So here I am writing this blog in my notebook.
Well not the whole postings, but the key points.
Balloons and lines attached to more balloons, forming an intricate picture that manage to form an idea of what needs to be done and said.
Can't remember where I learned how to do this but its been part of my thinking process since I can remember learning how to plan.

Maybe that’s why, I am better in physics and in any language subject.
There are just no lines to be drawn with languages.
Or if there is, I can't see them properly.
Which is why my way of talking does not always make sense to others.

Of mud holes and worms in cans ....

The subject matter in concern is that our beloved country is in the verse of a terse political war.

It is also in the situation where any kind of "political outbreak" will destroy voter confidence in any form of fair play.

So much tension has brewed since the Opposition Party manage to wrench 5 states out of 15 (including federal territory) from the current reigning government grasp 1 year ago.

Now, it seems as if part of the united line party wants the 5 states back and will resolve to any means possible.

At least that’s what it looks like in the outset.
More and more political scandals have risen since the change of power occurred.
The coffee shops are terming this as "Dirty Politics" or "Oppression of the strong".

Voters are enraged by the underhanded methods being utilized.
Yet no concrete evidence can be produced to indicate the true perpetrator.

Could it be merely coincidence?
Are we just too paranoid?
Yet, it matters not.
The general public is now associating all of these to the federal government as their ploy to take back what was "theirs".
Even their own supporters are questioning if their party is loosing its integrity.

As for me?
I am no supporter for either side.
All I want is a peaceful place where we are able to live in harmony and able to achieve something better than "surviving".
The kind of leadership that is needed for that need not be "good" or "fair".
It only needs to know the concept of "you scratch my back and I will scratch yours".
Mutual benefits.
Or better known as the elusive "Win-Win" situation.

Though simple as that idea might be, it is one of the hardest thing to do.
How does a game that is so large in scale be able to achieve a "Win-Win"?
It will require monumental foresight and strong decisive actions.
A leader of that calibre can't be found.
At least not in a political arena.
We can see it within the private business sectors.
The CEO's and COO's of large enterprise business achieve that kind of balance by looking far into the future and plan for it.
But compared to them, a politician’s life span is short and un-rewarding.
Which is why politicians tend to focus on short-term goals and ignore any consequences that is not obvious in a 10+ year basis.

So can we even put a blame on the current federal leaders for this aspect of political truth?
Some will say yes, there is nothing they can do about it.
It’s no longer in their power to do something "great", only something "good" or maybe even a "not so bad" job.
And I believe most people will accept that answer.

Well, I don't accept it.

From my standpoint, these people are not just "Politicians", there are also of the public.
Are they not part of the citizens of our country?
Are they not eating and drinking from the same well that we all share?
It’s not suppose to be just a job for them.
They are suppose to be able to see things from the publics point of view.
Instead they see themselves as risen above us and become "nobleman" or part of the "aristocrats".
No longer part of the common people.

Holding power corrupts; we all know that, no matter how small that power might be, it will corrupt in proportion of it.
A constant struggle between our dark side occurs every single time we wield power.

Those that is in power today, has been tainted so long that they are covered by the glut that holds them near to the pit fires of hell.
Instead of condemning them, we have to understand the situation.
Bureaucratic establishment has been around so long that people forget that it all started because a leader is needed to guide and make decisions.
It should not separate them from the people.
Because they are PART of the whole and not above it.
If it sounds very near to the concept of communism, that’s because the theory is sound but the implementation of it is just not well thought through.
Caring for the good of the people and helping them achieve a better life together cannot be a bad thing.
The goal is lofty and practical at the same time.
Clearing away the clinks is part of the growing process that is needed for establishing a sound government.

We have had no remarkable breakthrough since the French Democratic movement.

After reading Starship Troopers, I am partially bias towards the "earning" our citizenship thing.
We are in all sense merely civilians living in a land ruled by citizens.
Citizenship means we get to vote and we understand the value of being a citizen properly.
It’s not just something that we get for free because someone else did the hard work.
It sounds hard but it makes a certain sense.
It is the citizens’ responsibility to care for the civilians.
Of course it sounds ideal and its prone to have its own blindspots, but it is something that is built on top of what we know today, it sounds and looks like a move forward.

I am by far not a good political thinker.
I am too optimistic to be a good one.
And I am too practical to even want to be one.
Hence is why the world is in the kind of situation that it is in now.
Those who know enough don't care enough.
Those who care enough don't know enough.
Those who have both don't live long enough to implement it.

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain ...

Some of my staff in the office is getting very "into" blogging as a past time.
And I don't mean just putting on stuff or commenting subjects that comes to mind.
So basically they are not doing what I do.

They are making blogs into a business platform where they market goods to the public.
In order to entice the public into coming, they put up articles that help get them into the search engine results whenever people are seeking for solutions to problems.
Examples are like "How to setup Windows XP on a thumbdrive" that kind of article which gathers a pull effect on the public to come and have a look.
Google analytics helps them monitor and adjust their pages so that they can get better outcomes from each different article.

I subscribed to Analytics a long time ago but never got around to implementing it into my blog.
Well, eventually I did and something interesting came up.

For the last 2 weeks there were several visitors that came here because they found something interesting within a few pages in this area.
Them being...

A manga phrase

And

A little note I dedicated to a friend

I have around 500+ articles that I posted in the last 4 years and only 2 of them are of interest to the Internet world.
I should be proud that people are even marginally interested in what I say.
Yet, I am not.
The fact is most of the time I cater for a certain kind of crowd.
My readers are a small niche of individuals that don't mind my bantering.
They are unique in a sense that my words actually manages to speak to them.

I can count my readers because they are the only one coming in.
Maybe some don't leave messages but even counting them I am nowhere near Pugs popularity level.

The posting you get here are not that funny, dry humour maybe but not humour.
Even though its not gothic, its not bright and bushytailed either.
There is very little of direct knowledge, I tend to be vague on my actual meanings, letting it simmer in the back of their mind.
And lastly, it’s not very revealing.
My true name never gets put on ever.
I hide behind my pseudo identity.

I have been known to be a reclusive individual.
I hide in the crowd.
I only talk so that people can ignore me.
And I shut up whenever I am able to.
I like taking pictures of things.
Small.
Big.
Round.
Unimportant.
It matters not the type of article, merely that it exist, and thus I am interested in it.
Pictures tell me stories of things I know not.
It tells me the tales that I know not of things that I know not about.
You see the spiral I slip in?

Rambling again, I suppose.
Not as much as I used to of course.
Been busy making the world do things the way I want it to do.

A relative of my wife told me that I am "Arrogant and Self-Centred" and should learn to walk the path of my lord Christ.

And I told him this...

"I am merely confident of life and what it is.
God’s will is my path, but I am the one that will choose to walk it.
What you term as arrogance is a reflection of insecurity of your inner soul.
I walk his road and hear his songs.
I praise his wisdom.
But most of all, I do his work.
If I seem arrogant, it is because you think I do it for me.
Far from it.
I don't do anything for myself much anymore.
Most of the time I do anything it is because it needs to be done.
So label me what you want, for at the end, it matters not.
My life is his."

Do I still sound like an arrogant feces matter?
:) ... It can't be help I suppose.
It’s how all of us sound like when we understand our duty.

Bigots and goverment officials ...

A innocent woman's naked photo is plastered all over the net and what is the reaction?

The woman is to be blamed.

Yes, folks.
That is what our current goverment officials are saying.

Its her fault that she is being scandalized.
Its her fault that she sleeps nude.
Its her fault that she befriended the wrong guy.
And oh ... oh ... you will like this, one of the officials actually said
"How are her constituents going to look at her now, since they have seen her naked."

I can't even come to terms on how angry I am at these idiots who are holding goverment offices.

I mean ... I heard that they were stupid and in some occasion seen the results of incompetence. But this is the first time I have ever really paid attention to how much of bigotary conduct is inbued within these individuals.

Saying that we won't put them in office next term is basically not going happen.
As I can't even fanthom how they got into office in the first place.
The people voted them in because they believe that THESE individuals will help them.

Well, lets see them reacting if it was their sister, mother, girlfriend who was the victim of these hidious and malicious acts.

Let me rephrase that, let THEM, the so call MALE OFFICIALS and SUPPORTERS be the one posted up in the NET with their tiny utils hanging limply out for the world to see as the kind of bigot that they trully are.

Ms.Elizabeth Wong is a victim of rape.
There is no other way to view this.
A victim of rape by her former boy friend when he took the picture without concent.
Now a victim of repeated rape again by these goverment officials who are condeming her for this tragedy.

RAPE need not be physical.
RAPE is worst when it is done to a person's mind.
And this is RAPE.
And our goverment officials condone it.
I know scums who are more honorable than these filth.

Its just peachy ...

The uncomfortable thing about helping people is that they never really appreciate it at all.

No matter how much good you do, at the end, if it inconvenience their lifestyle or in a later date becomes less than perfect, they complain that it was us that ruined their chance for something good.

Yes, they say "thank you" and "your the best" and what not, right after you spent days if not weeks helping them setup their perfect plan, even pitching money as well as time and effort, it feels like your stepping in to heaven when they blanket you with affections.

But just like the mirage in the dessert, it is fleeting and it is not real.

Just as fast and thunderous it came; it goes out the same way.

We are then blamed for their failing relationship because we said the wrong thing.
We are blamed for their financial crisis because we said that Hawaii was a good place for honeymooning.
We are the main reason for the current government illicit conducts because we said that the former governing body was a complete ass of a living entity.

Yes, people.
We are to blame for decisions that you made.
We consult and provide choices.
We helped and gave our passionate advice.
Yet know this, we are not saints and we do not know the blueprint that the Lord works in.

I have no idea why your boyfriend is cheating on you.
I have no idea why your daughter is seeing that cheapass con-artist.
I have no idea why your flowers are not blooming as nicely as your neighbour.

But maybe ... just maybe it is because you are part of the problem?

Maybe if you paid attention to the person and his attitude more, you will have realized that the dumbass is not worthy to be a flee on the back of a dog and certainly did not take the relationship you share to be even important to begin with?
That there was never really a relationship at all?
It was just a scam to get into your panties?

As for the daughter and the con-artist? Well, have you paid attention to the fact this is the 5th boy friend that she has had this year?
And that all of them are immature and she needs a father to care for her and not just telling her that she is a disgrace to the family and never to set foot back in the door until she gets her act together?
Where were you when she did her piano recital?
Where were you when she told her mom of her first love of life?

And the flowers? Man, what do you expect? You asked your maid to water the flowers.
Your neighbour tends his garden himself and puts in hours of passionate attention on every petal that is grown in those pots.
Does it make him a better man than you?
I have no idea, but it does mean his a better gardener and will be having lovely orchids to look at in the evening.

If you insist on ruining your own life by making excuses for all your actions.
Then you better sleep in that bed of shit you made.
Because as good intentions come, it’s better you actually feel the wraith of your own blunders than to shelter you from the coming storm.

I have learned that sometimes in order to make things better, its better to do nothing at all.

The silence ...

I know my postings have come to a halt the last 2 weeks.
Given the fact that my brain is on a stand still as well ...
I am to be forgiven.

The season of food and driving around in a ten year old car came and left in a rush.

I am much poorer now than I was before due to the "giving money away" ritual we practice year after year.
Another fact is that the damn TAX BRACKET got adjusted again and I am paying more to a goverment who is doing less.

Cynic?
No.
Tired?
Might be ...
Pissed?
No longer ...

What more can I expect from a corrupt goverment that practices the buying of votes and state seats?
How can I even hope that these individuals that practice "extreme prejudice" to govern fairly and with the peoples good in mind.

Cynic? Surely not.
No longer care? Almost there.